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I Am The Project

This website/blog/project (whatever) is not about trying to be a better person, or some kind of great achiever, it's about accepting the person I am, something that has, so far, eluded me. This is something that for fifty-plus years, has only served to make life rather difficult. I've always wanted to be someone, do something cool or impressive, but the truth is, I already am someone, and the project is about figuring out exactly who. It could feasibly take up the rest of my life, but that would be better than not bothering.

I live in Cornwall, United Kingdom, (right near the very bottom left), and aside from a fairly short period of extremely grown up behaviour that involved a 'proper job', having children and living elsewhere, and an even shorter period between my birth, in Scotland, United Kingdom (right near the very top right), and my family making our way down here, I have lived here almost my entire life. If life had worked out some other way I may have travelled further, and seen more, but that's not how it is, and to be quite honest, it's beautiful here, and there are many many worse places to live.

I was formally diagnosed, at fifty four years old with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, and Autistic Spectrum Disorder, alongside existing diagnoses of Borderline Personality Disorder, and Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Life has been a little tricky, and that lot would probably explain all, or at least most, of the things I could have done, but did not do over the last several decades. It is what it is.

I walk my dog, potter about with projects, try to get some proper sleep, exercise, and generally do what I can to look after myself. I spend a lot of time with music, and books, especially when it's not appropriate for me to voyage outside and/or exercise as I experience large chunks of time where I cannot always leave the house, something I've learned to live with and I appreciate the times when I can be a little more free. I also try to keep my ageing body, and my wobbly brain in some kind of order with a ketogenic diet and intermittent fasting. It involves actual science rather than mere opinion, vague moral stance, or marketing strategy, and it works for me, which is the part that actually matters.

Life is not easy, and I'm getting older.
I do what I can, when I can.

I live by the sea, I have a strong, supportive family.
These things really help.